sabotaging potential

So, my parents have gotten back together and want to travel the US. I think it's a great idea. It's the perfect opportunity for both of them, and the timing is fantastic. Besides, my dad has quit chemo for a few weeks and has always wanted to travel (esp since his days in the air force).

However, that leaves me looking for a new place to live. I love the place I'm currently at, but lease is coming up.

Onto something different. I've started to realize I'm sabotaging my potential relationships. I haven't been on a date in... well, a long time. And it's not that I haven't been asked. Most recently was E and P (names changed to protect the innocent, lol). Both asked me out and I just never called them back. They tried, God bless them. Before that was Michael; same deal. I think I'm just afraid of being hurt and assume that every guy will hurt me, so I don't even pursue any relationships. To me, it just seems better to keep everyone at arm's length. And that's not just the guys. Family, friends, coworkers... everyone means everyone.

Well, that's all a little too honest for me. I better end this post before I admit to something really embarassing.

xoxo